No, i don’t really believe that the world will end the 21.12.2012.
I know, there actually is a lot of people who do believe that and I guess we all sometimes fear that it all will be over, one way or another.
Last night I had the weirdest dream.
Honestly, it was horrible and I woke up soaking wet, crying, shaking of pure fear.
I was in a car, with my mother driving down from a mountain.
Suddenly the ground started shaking, but not like when it is an earthquake, but like when you start feeling dizzy and loses balance.
At first, I told my mom, “we have to stop the car, my head is spinning”.
My mom looked at me with fear in her eyes and said “Baby, it’s not your head. I think the world is about to spin out of its pattern”.
We stop the car and everything is quiet.
We go out of the car and just stands there for a minute, and then it happens again.
It feels like the world spins too fast, I feel sick and lay down on the grown, crying.
My mom sits down beside me and keep repeating, “I love you, you know that right? I love you”
I tell her to stop saying it, because it makes it all feels worse.
Suddenly, the day shifts into night in a flash, and back again to daylight.
I stop crying and thinks, so this is it, this is how it all ends.
And all of the things we could have done in this world.
All the dreams, hopes and visions.
All the opportunities.. all gone, there will never be a second chance.
Then the animals started running out of the woods, and they are running so fast that after a while you could not even see them. They were just screaming, black spots who flew by.
The stars started falling and sometimes you can feel the earth crashing into other planets.
Then the earth loses its gravity and everything starts flying off the surface.
The threes get dragged up by their roots and houses fly away.
Everything disappears, away from the earth, out in space.
slowly, like floating in water.
I’m still on the ground and instead of flying off, I’m being pushed down and can’t move anymore.
I turn around, facing the sky.
Time goes slowly, than fast, then back to slow again.
A birdcage fly over my head, first in slow-motion, then by a blink of an eye, its gone.
The night turns into day, the day into night and back again, constantly shifting.
Suddenly I hear music playing, but I can’t remember what song it was.
It comes and goes.
Its getting harder to breathe.
I try to take off, to fly out in space, like everything else, but it doesn’t work.
I don’t know what I fear the most, to die or to be alive and see it all disappear.
The last thing I told myself in the dream was, “And I didn’t even get the option to give up”.
It all goes dark. I scream, I cry, and then, after about 3 minutes, I realize I’m awake.
I run up, turn the lights on, and are seriously so scared that I need to tell myself that everything is good, im not dead, its safe, it was just a dream.
Thinking about it now, it’s just absurd, and I have been laughing about it all day, because it really feels like I have been watching too many American movies lately.
but it was so real and I guess in a way I was trying to tell myself something.
I don’t know if it is to live more, that there is something pushing me down, to do more to..no, I really don’t know.
My mom says, that if you dream about something ending.
Like death and the world ends, it usually means that something new is about to begin.
And today, I actually have been feeling very good about it all, even if it was a horrible dream, it has left me a good feeling.
I guess we will just wait and see what it all ment..
But if you know anything about dreams and dream reading, please feel free to comment and tell me what you think it all means.